I am never hungry

So I never feel hungry. I have been on liquids for 3 weeks 2 pre op 1 post. I got behind on my water the last few days so today I made myself drink a liter of water by sipping 5 times every time a commercial came n tv. Urine is not as dark and I feel a bit better. Also I got my broth from a progreso soup minus the veggies and meat it was so much better then the crappy Swanson broths I have been eating. I made a unjury shake earlier with chocolate and strawberry flavor drank half and need to get the other half in tonight.
I really want to move onto mushy but I am supposed to wait til Tuesday. I am healing well I think although I occasionally get a deep twinge on my left side. The baby was crying hysterically and I Had to pick him up. that really hurt my left side. He is way over 10 lbs. took a pain pill and feel ok now.
I have no way to weigh myself here at home but I feel smaller.

Home post op

Hi everyone I am home. Passing gas up and down so that's good. I get up and do 5 laps around the apartment. Taking my pain meds. Belly is quite sore, but I still have my q pump so the burn is not to bad. The SI joint thing went away what a relief that added so much pain to my experience completely unrelated to my surgery lol. My doc gave me tordol an NSAID . I questioned him but he reassured me a short course would be ok and I jumped at it. I think it worked hope it hold that SI joint.
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I went into atrial fib last nite so walking is a bit more tiring and I think it makes me pee very frequently cuz it runs more fluid through the kidneys and a faster rate then normal so I have been up every two hours to the br all night ick!
I have to take my Bp medicine crushed and it tastes gross but you got to do what you got to do.

Post op

I had surgery at 815 this morning , it lasted almost three hours. When I woke  up I had major pain but no severe nausea. They medicated me til my pain was about a 6 and transferred me to my room. The wonderful nurses did a thorough exam which entailed a bit more movement then was comfortable. Their attitude was the best medicine encouraging, caring, and skilled: awesome! I used my pcs button and got my pain to 2/10, rested, and most important of all BURPED. Gas release is crucial after laparoscopic procedures. I got up and walked before 4 pm it wasn't to bad at all and I knew I had to do it, then I sat up in a chair for30 min. Took a nap and feel pretty damn good all in all.

A few details: my dr saying in the or before I went out " can we get a warm blankie, where are the warm blankies" the ice packs to my low back, my wonderful supportive son by my side before and after, and mouth swabs!

Letter to myself night before surgery

Dear Rachael,
   No matter how hard it gets remember why you are doing this.
To be able
To get healthy
To travel
To be there for your grandkids
To be there for your kids

Yes it will be hard but you can do it. You tried for over 50 years to lose the wt yourself and this is your chance to really get it done. Use the tool to change your habits. Focus on goals, exercising , and eating to live. It will not be easy but you have survived this long and faced many obstacles and emerged victorious. Your family loves you and wants you to succeed. They want a mom, sister, grandmother that can be with them a long time and go places with them. You can be that person.

Drama drama drama

I am a drama queen
Hopefully it's like a play and I am getting all the complications done in rehearsal instead of opening night.
After my IVC filter I developed a raging pain in the top of my thigh and my right butt cheek. It actually started before they did the filter on the table. I called the doc from CVIR he said it could not be from the filter. I called my chiropractor and when I got there my hip Was completely out my right foot was literally 2 inches shorter. He put ice on it for a few  then adjusted me but when i got home I could not get Comfortable unless I laid on my stomach ( haven't done that since I was 8). Been putting ice packs on it all day trying to rest fair condition right now. Also my damn drs office called me Friday to tell me I needed to drive all the way to their office (45 min in good traffic) to be weighed Monday. I was like I am working 9-5 monday I just weighed myself thursday at the pcps and I was reduced to 428 net reduction 20 lbs since I started low carb and optifast. They finally agreed to let me weigh at my pcps office Monday and call them.
The wt loss will be no problem as I can't eat at all today, I have 3/4ths of a protein shake which was made with 1. Optifast shake 1 1/2 scoop unjury protein powder plus ice.

Just as I feared

(this paragraph was posted a month ago)

Then there is my MRSA which is meth resistant staph aureous. This infection used to be named a nosocomial or hospital acquired infection but they changed it to MRSA and now it seems to be treated like leprosy. You are labelled for life and isolated whenever you are in the hospital. Which means i get a private room which works for me but it irritates me that I am treated like a leper and the hospital the freaking source of the microorganism is absolved of all blame or responsibility.

(wrote this today)

I got bad news yesterday. My nasal swab was positive for mrsa. MRSA is a nosocomial infection which means its hospital acquired and the organism is resistant to treatment. As a nurse for almost thirty years I guess it's inevitable to be colonized but it's devastating to be told your surgery may be delayed because they have to do you last so they can decontaminate, you will be unable to be on the bariatric floor but will be placed on a floor on isolation, and have to get an infectious disease clearance.

I did not take the news well I got very upset on the phone asking why i can not be on the bariatric floor that i have heard such good things about? Isolation is isolation. I will have a private room they are all private on the bariatric floor. she started off with you may have to be in ICU I could understand if they wanted to watch me closely but to be put on a medical floor its odd. I just do not get it.

So I made an appointment with a doc for Monday and I am starting some antibiotics that have from my last infection, I am going to bath in hibicleanse everyday and may do a nasal lavage with it . I feel desperate!

Less then 2 weeks to go

Today I went to bluepoint for my dietician and doctor appointment. I have had my issues with some people at the office and today was no different. I think they just plain do not like me. Not everyone but at least two are cold curt and borderline insulting. I am an advocate for my own health care (what nurse isnt) and I ask questions. i do not know if this can be resolved but I am nOot taking it sitting down. When they ask me how it is going I say fine except the way certain people treat me. If I get the chance I will write them a  evaluation that is truthful. I do not think I am unreasonable but maybe i am. either way BE NICE it wont kill you and it goes a long way when dealing with people having a major life changing surgery sheeesh.
Ok so I am excited and nervous but not to bad yet. I am in day three of my two week optifast (adjust by me of course) diet. I had reduced 12 lbs per my PCP's scale then the bluepoint scale said i gained back 5 lbs. At that time i was doing less then 2000 calories a day low carb no cheating. I was like F this and had a candy bar. What is the point of being good and still gain. Not a good attitude I know. I admit the candy did not taste as good as I thought it would and I got back on track pretty quickly. my FINAL meal pre op was sunday night. I went out with the family to my old favorite italian restraunt and had pasta spinach soup and lovely italian bread and desert but i forgot about the brownies i had at home and didnt have one. I made my son take them the next day once I started my optifast diet. I was proud of myself for not eating those!
Today my wt at bluepoint was back to the 12 lbs reduced but the scale fluctuated to a 2 lb gain (I guess I was not being still) I about freaked out. The girl weighing me was a bit unfriendly but I think she was feeling unwell (cough or cold).
Then there is the MRSA issue. I have been concerned that I will have an active site near my surgery date and maybe get a systemic infection even though the worst one I had (left leg) that required 5 days hospitalization never cultured positive in my blood. I mentioned it to my doctor he was not concerned since I have nothing active right now. The nurse at the hospital said I must have a swab of nose and throat prior to my surgery. So I am working on that now.